ask her out. fall in love. go to a party. have a
great time with all of your great friends. and
when you're in the midst of getting shit faced,
cheat on her. cheat on her like theres no
tomorrow. i hope she finds out.
and if she does i hope she feels like shit. i hope
you make her wonder why she ever liked you.
i hope she cries.
and cries.
and cries.
and then you'll apologize.
and maybe she will take you back.
then you can do it again.
i wish the worst for both of you.

taken from mandi

How many total songs: 1234 haha
How many hours or days of music: 3.1 days
Most recently played: you wont know- brand new
Most played: tctol- fall out boy
Most recently added: float on- modest mouse

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Last: 94 hours- as i lay dying

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You: 227

the site of my mother makes me want to gouge my eyes out.

I have no one.

EVERYTHING.
I hate being depressed. I hate going to a counselor. I hate school. I hate boys. no, boys are ok. but I hate liking them. I hate girls, though. and I hate most people in general. I hate jerry. I hate that place. and I hate every single that kid that I've ever had. I hate food and I hate eating it. I hate being alone but I hate being with people at the same time? I hate it when my friends like eachother better than me. I hate not knowing. the list goes on. but most of all, I hate feeling like this and hating everything.

i want to be alone, but i really dont OR
i dont want to be alone, but i really do?

i cant decide. maybe it just depends.

when you straighten their hair.

in this picture: a barbie, gobstoppers, a bottle cap, a fun bag, my closet, and that handle that joe gidley gave me last year from his science class.

sometimes i feel useless.

sidekick=stupid.

but I still love it.

I hate the green gobstoppers.

cobra starship.

mtv can suck my dick. =|

sometimes i freak out and think my friends don't like me very much. i believe this is true. and im not sorry for freaking out.

i could care less.


sometimes i freak out and think i don't have any friends, which is not true.
so sorry for freaking out.

am
i
so
young?

uhjgadfkjghdkfjghkdfjghk

lol@bathrooms

i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.
don't talk to me. don't look at me. don't touch me. don't think about me. don't sit by me. don't walk next to me. don't hug me. don't kiss me. don't call me. don't text me.
i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i like you.

they get a long so well. someone tell me if the two of them are better friends without me. that would explain why im never invited, why whenever she visits she always goes to her house, or why they talk to eachother more than they talk to me. i guess when there's 3 people someone is always left out. and not to pity myself or anything, but it's always me. i wish i was the one that moved away. i think maybe the one that lives here wouldn't feel the way she did. and i bet the other one would be happier. all i know is that i've had "i've got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut you mouth" on repeat for about 45 minutes now, and it really isn't helping at all. no wonder why im so fucked up. i don't even have any good friends.

the best techno party so far.
STEVE IS A MAN.
how can you dance next to that kid?
you cant. hes too good.
but last night was the first time a felt normal since summer.
after everything happened i felt so secluded.
and to go to a party and just let go felt so relieving.
nugget fucking nugget. thats all i have to say.

it's about time that i'm not left out. we'll see what happens.